With a heavy heart, I come to you today, to tell you that little Laverne passed away at 5:53 last night.
She was a twin who started life with odds against her. She was born with a broken leg….a high break… near the hip. The vet said her Mama, Cupid, probably stepped on her during delivery.
Laverne and Shirley were born sometime in the wee hours of May 31, 2013.

I found her all alone in the back pasture near a brush pile. It looked as if her Mom delivered her and walked on….probably still in labor with the other baby. Laverne might have been first. Maybe after she was delivered, her Mama had to continue pushing for the second baby girl, Shirley.
I posted about this back in June 2013, if you want to read the whole story, you can look back and read it.
I had to give her a chance, she didn’t cry or groan like she was ever in pain, so I opted to let her live out the best life she could.
As soon as she was found, her life turned around. She was immediately taken care of.

Billy and I fed her and tried to treat her leg. She worked with us….allowing us to mess with her and not resisting.
We had the vet out to see her, but there wasn’t a lot that could be done. It was possible that as long as she could eat, drink and get around she might heal. She might always hobble or limp…but time would tell.
And so, we just loved her. She seemed to have a great disposition, even with her disability.
She always greeted us when we came into the pasture.
She was a little beauty.

She melted everybody’s heart.
She may not have had a cow mother to take care of her…

but she had many surrogate mothers.



All summer….people came to see her….feed her…love her….morning and night.


There were many others that fed her as well…but I didn’t always have a camera handy.
Whenever we went out of town….people came….they warmed milk and fed her….twice a day.
The cows would graze around her and occasionally she would stand long enough to hang out with them….but eventually they would move on to another area. She would be left alone in the pasture for hours. I feared that a coyote or something would get after her and she would not be able to run away….so we decided to bring her closer to the house.
She came to live in the fenced area with the chickens, where she would have more company. Eventually the small goats joined her. She seemed to like her new home and all her new friends.

In August….she was getting around much better. She had managed to get up and down in spite of that broken leg. Meanwhile she developed a big hernia….probably because of the strain of getting up and down with only three good legs. The vet suggested we wait on doing anything surgery wise for that. She wasn’t in good enough shape to undergo that.
Still she managed….

And still would greet me and others when anyone came through the gate.
One September day, Billy and I were working on the coop, when some of the grand kids came by. Once again Laverne was showered with affection. We all gathered around her and got this shot….I am so glad we did.

I have the greatest neighbors anybody could ever want. They have helped me look after Laverne all the months, grown ups and children. If they were passing by, the would came in and love on her….as well as the goats and chickens.

Just 2 weeks ago….she was giving rides to the chickens.
Friday night was a really cold night. She couldn’t get up on her own Saturday morning. One of the neighbors noticed, helped her and contacted me.
I warmed a bottle or milk…..by then she was sitting again….I sat beside her. It was time just to sit and love on her. She welcomed that bottle and took her time drinking it…..as we gazed into each others eyes.
She always could melt my heart with those big beautiful brown eyes.
She seemed a little better as the day went on, it warmed up and she walked around a little.
Sunday morning she was sitting up which is always a good sign, but by afternoon she was laying on her side. She was so weak she couldn’t even hold her head up. I tried to give her some electrolytes…but she showed no interest and I found she couldn’t even swallow.
I have played her life over and over in my head all night long. I should have done this….or I should have done that. I suppose that happens when we try to make sense of things. Especially when they don’t turn out as we had hoped.
I do know that she was loved…..and I know she gave a lot of love too. Yesterday, while I was sitting in the grass with her. I can’t begin to tell you how many people came by to check on her. Several people of all ages literally came and sat with us….in the grass, lovingly holding her little head in their hands, petting her. We all comforted her the best way we knew how. This sweet little calf made tears sneak out of our eyes and roll down our faces.
It was hours… some neighbors even stayed with her when I couldn’t be right beside her. She had someone with her at all times….until she drew her last breath. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate the compassion that was shown.
Our farm life stories are put on this blog….probably more for me than anyone else. Several years ago I felt the need to share what I was learning as I experience life and death with these wonderful creatures. I don’t know how to describe it other than….I just feel God teaching me things. Things that touch me in a much different way than ever before.
Last night it was as if God was whispering to my heart…I know you love her Sonya….so do I.
As I reflected that yes, she is just a cow…..I know….but God made her too.
I feel as if I am to take this memory of love and compassion and show this to others. God gently reminded me to be this concerned for lost souls, for children who like Laverne were abandoned and would love to have a surrogate mother and friends show them love. Do I show this kind of compassion to the people around me?
It is a lot to think about.

I am grateful for the time we got to spend with Laverne…..and thankful for the lessons she continues to teach me.